ahhhhh i don't get it.
[[ espoyr ]] * 00:51
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do you know, there's a difference between morals and ethics? the former refers to your personal beliefs of what's right and what's wrong; the latter refers to the society's distinction between what's right and what's wrong.

we are expected to follow the ethics, instead of the morals. but which one should we really adhere to, if we want to face up to our conscience?

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hot & spicy cabbage stew

whywhywhy is it so cold?
[[ espoyr ]] * 14:11
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i just got back from possible the worst trip in my memory. left for paris on friday afternoon, hoping that wenjian (being there for 2 months alr) could bring us around to see the true paris, not the touristy spots i went in june. sadly, after bringing us out for dinner on the first night, he pretty much threw us a guide book and left us to do our own stuff.

here comes the problem: wenxiang has never been to paris before, so he wanted to chiong the tourist attractions, but i honestly couldn't be bothered. it's not as if paris is a favourite city of mine. argh. so sat was spent going on a free walking tour, a short visit to the invalides before closing time, and just randomly roaming about and soaking in the parisian culture. sun was split between a weekly market (non-touristy! =D) and a trip to versailles. no sign of the treaty; just a lot of tourists in that boring palace and empty garden. and guess what i did today? hahah, i camped in wenjian's room and mugged, with the exception of that one hour i spent strolling around overpriced carrefour. what a fruitful trip right. -.-

to make matters worse, wenjian's place (which he shares with 6 other chinese nationals) is supersupersuper dirty. =X being the hygiene freak that i am, i was distressed the past 3 days man. i mean, this morning, i woke and discovered that both the toilets were clogged with shit. like arghhhhhh.

and, i'm not exactly very close to either wenjian or wenxiang. we just met (or rather, i met them) because we are the "oldies" in the dunman high youth alumni. i realised that, through our conversations the past few days, we probably wont make very good friends cos the personalities dont seem to match. oh well, i wasted £150 on the eurostar ticket and food, but i need to stop living in regret. =S

sigh, busy week ahead. it's reading week, and for the first time, i'm really going to spend it reading. there's so much text to go through. =X
[[ espoyr ]] * 21:54
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Because I want to waste time...

Here are the rules:
1. You can only use one word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers.
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

The Survey
1. Where is your cell phone? Table
2. Your hair? Wet
3. Your mother? Noble
4. Your father? Loving
5. Your favorite food? Minchangkueh (hah, one word. =P)
6. Your dream last night? Ulcer (yes, i know, very sad. ): )
7. Your favorite drink? Tea
8. Your dream/goal? Peace
9. What room are you in? Bedroom
10. Your hobby? Baking
11. Your fear? Disappointing
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Contributing
13. Where were you last night? Sleeping (lah)
14. Something that you aren’t? Superwoman
15. Muffins? Top ):
16. Wish list item? Family
17. Where did you grow up? SINGAPORE =D
18. Last thing you did? Reading
19. What are you wearing? Clothes -.-
20. Your TV? Non-existent
21. Your pets? Stuffed
22. Friends? Amazing
23. Your life? Lucky
24. Your mood? Tensed
25. Missing someone? Definitely
26. Vehicle? Environmentally-unfriendly
27. Something you’re not wearing? Mask
28. Your favorite store? Jollibean (hah!)
29. Your favorite color? Red
30. When was the last time you laughed? Dinner
31. Last time you cried? Monday
32. Your best friend? Daniel
33. One place that I go to over and over? Dunman
34. One person who e-mails me regularly? Singsem
35. Favorite place to eat? SINGAPORE
[[ espoyr ]] * 21:21
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(A) SINGSEM IS OVER.
(B) VINE ELECTIONS ARE DONE.

i feel a lot less stressed now. (:

singsem was great! logistically a nightmare, but i met a lot of cute (in a complimentary sense =P) freshers cos they were my ushers for the day. we had this little mess at the start of the event, cos the speeches overran like mad, but the committee was super awesome lah. zhiqi handled the situation very well, i think. (:

same food for lunch (aka chicken rice, laksa, salmon, bak choy, braised tofu and oyster omelette), but dinner at kiasu was awesome! chai tow kueh, ngoh hiang, prawn fritters, jellyfish, corn soup, CHILLI SOFT-SHELL CRAB WITH DEEP-FRIED MANTOU, char kway teow, curry chicken, jasmine rice, sambal kangkong, roast duck and fruit with sorbert! hahaha, i know the menu very well, because i was the one who was in charge of organising the dinner. (but no, there was no vested interest involved in the planning of the menu kay. =P)

and elections was awesome too! i am very very with the formation of the newly elected exco. george lim (our batch sc!) is the new pres, and alan is vice-pres. i hope the next academic year for vine will be smooth-sailing and better than before!

now, i need to catch up on my work, before the weekend trip to say hi to wenjian in paris! (and also before shiyang starts dumping ukssc work on me. =S)

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i am really glad i decided to stick with ucl's yoga & meditation soc. it's great discussing about philosophies without any hint of religion. argh, i wish meditation will get easier though; i need to shut up my mind.
[[ espoyr ]] * 22:23
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while lugging home 2000pcs of white paper for singsem, i realised that i'm doing someone else's job. to be exact, tim and i are doing general logistics.

at dinner..
"jeff and aaron, can you help me carry 380 folders tomorrow after class please?"
"what folders?"
"orh, for the participants to write on one ah?"

even jeff knows more about singsem, and he's not even attending it. i'm honestly irritated now.

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random thought: i'm so proud of LKY. (:
[[ espoyr ]] * 20:48
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you know how sometimes after you purchased a product, you realised that it's defective? naturally, you post it back and ask for a new/good one.
i wonder if my parents know they should have sent me back to God (in a most general unreligious way), because i am not perfect. ):
[[ espoyr ]] * 20:19
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